Monday, November 3, 2008

a bad mom moment ...

Ever have one of those days where stress gets the best of you? No? Then you're either extremely lucky or completely lying (my guess is the lying). I am having that day right now (and for the past week if we are going to be honest here). But I didn't realize how stressed I really am until about a hour ago. When I totally freaked out on Dizzle. FOR. NO. APPARENT. REASON.

Seriously, it was bad. Not only did I feel horrible (as I was doing it - apparently not bad enough to stop though), there were witnesses. Witnesses who I will have to face again. Probably tomorrow.

Anyway, after lunch this afternoon, the girls and I were making our way to the car when Dizzle let go of my hand in the parking lot and started walking backwards into the travel lane. And although there wasn't a car nearby I totally acted like she was centimeters away from being crushed. I grabbed her arm, dragged her and proceeded to yell nonsense at her. It was so bad. I hated it in the moment and I hate it even more now. I feel like such a bad mom. I can't believe I'm taking out my stress on my babies. AHHHHH ........

3 comments:

Katie said...

Hey-
Don't be so hard on yourself and by the way there actually was a car there when she stepped back b/c I almost grabbed her myself.
So you weren't really taking your stress out on her your were just scared for her safety.

momof3 said...

WHOA! The deal is that you get a free pass on that one! Because she better know that you mean business when it comes to street safety. No beating yourself up on this one... promise?

Mama D said...

T,
We ALL have these moments and safety situations can make it worse. Have 3 deep breaths and a smile and start all over. :-)