Yesterday, G wrote a rather insightful post on the self-imposed limitations we set for ourselves. After I read it, I sent her a message to let her know that she was right. She needs to start believing that she can reach her "dream goal." And that since she mentioned it, I might as well start believing that I can reach mine too.
For me, it is clear that my failures (if you want to call them that) are results of mental weakness. I am a strong runner. I know this. I thrive during training. I hit my goal times. And sometimes crush them. I excel at shorter distances (10K or less), not because I am better at them than longer distances, but because I have the confidence that I can complete them without faltering. And thus, I do.
In the longer distances, I set myself up poorly. When my body tells me it's had enough, I believe it. Even if it's not really the case. I know that I am capable of more, but when crunch time comes, I begin to doubt it. But that has to stop. I need to believe that I can hold my goal paces (or at least come close), because that is the only way I am ever going to make it happen.
So, I am going to crush that block that I have been allowing to stop me. And I am putting this out there to the universe. I am a strong runner. And a powerful runner. And I can reach my goals because I am capable. And it starts now.
Based on all of my recent race times from 3 miles to 10K, I should be able to run a 1:50 - 1:53 half marathon. My current PR is 2:01. In Seattle, with Mel pacing me, I am GOING TO RUN a 1:52. Everyone else seems to think I can do it, and now, so do I.
And that marathon that is a mere six weeks away? My primary goal has always been, and still is, to train correctly, stay injury free and run strong. But, honestly, I want a sub 4:30 time. It would be a HUGE PR (like 40 minutes). But I KNOW, I can run it. Anything faster would just be icing on the cake.
Now, all I have to do is prove myself right.