I'm in a funk.
I'm a freaking Honey Badger who's in a funk.
And there seems to be nothing I can do to shake it.
It started a few weeks ago and little by little has been consuming me.
Yesterday, I gave in.
Feeling bad and facing mental demons, I started my long run. Two and a half miles later, I couldn't fight the negativity anymore. I stopped the treadmill. Took a shower. And slept for 12 hours.
I woke up feeling even worse.
It was a total fail.
I know exactly what's bothering me.
I'm feeling inadequate.
Not only compared to those around me, but compared to my self-imposed expectations.
I feel like I am doing a lot of things decently, but nothing superbly.
And I freaking hate it.
It's hard to be positive all of the time.
It's hard to always be "on."
And it's really hard to admit your weaknesses.
I know mine.
Now I just need to find away to eliminate them.