Friday, May 6, 2011

revelation ...

Want to know a secret?

I don't miss the run.

I know. Shocker.

And honestly, I haven't really thought about running at all this week.

I'm not jealous when I read other people's posts. Or Facebook. Or Dailymile.

I am excited by the fact that I don't have to wake up early to fit it all in.

I haven't freaked out on anyone due to a lack of endorphins.

Maybe I needed a break. I haven't taken more than three days off in a row in three years.

Maybe I am just too focused on my discomfort to be bothered by my inactivity.

Maybe I don't feel "pressure" to run because I am not allowed to. And even if I was, it would be physically impossible.

Maybe it's that I can count down the days until I can return that keeps me unconcerned.

Maybe it's just too fresh.

Or maybe, just maybe, my crash was a blessing in disguise. I don't think things just happen. They happen for a reason.

You can't be bothered by the things you can't change. You have to make the best with what you are given.

25 comments:

Michelle said...

Your last two sentences are so true. Why worry about things that are completely out of your control? They just make you (and the people around you) go crazy.

Silly Girl Running said...

"You can't be bothered by the things you can't change. You have to make the best with what you are given. "

True. Exactly how I felt when I'd ripped my left calf muscle thingie. I knew I'd have to keep away from running for 6-8 weeks. So, I focussed on things I could do. And came out stronger: both mentally and physically.

Mamarunsbarefoot said...

How incredible!! So true and what a wonderful post!

Kurt @ Becoming An Ironman said...

I'm glad to hear the lack of running isn't bothering you. Just like you said, there's nothing you can do about it, so why worry?

Enjoy your little break!

Running Ricig said...

are you still on pain meds? Maybe it's the drugs ;)

Kidding! That's awesome that you're feeling good about everything!

Running Ricig said...

are you still on pain meds? Maybe it's the drugs ;)

Kidding! That's awesome that you're feeling good about everything!

(Just) Trying is for Little Girls said...

Everything does happen for a reason. It's great you've got that perspective early. Usually, it takes me until after the reason is made clear to understand it!

Morgan said...

For a few weeks now I've realized that not being able to run has really put in to perspective the things I've been taking for granted. I found myself not missing running until just this week because I was so thankful just to be walking again and knowing that I'd eventually run. This week though... I finally got run-sick but I think it's mostly do to all the gorgeous weather. Enjoy the break both mentally and physically and I'll keep you in my prayers that the shoulder heals up soon!

SupermomE12 said...

I am so glad you are in a good place mentally. You are right, it sounds like maybe you did need a break. I have no doubt that you will come back from this as a better, faster, stronger runner. :)

Mel -Tall Mom on the Run said...

Amen. I felt the SAME way when I tore my ACL in college, I was at peace, I accepted it and I RELAXED.. After the surgery was a PAIN, trying to get the strength back.. so for now just just try to enjoy while you can.. Good perspective.

MCM Mama said...

Good job taking everything in stride. When I injured my achilles, in some ways it was nice to not be able to run and then to have to build my mileage slowly. It took some of the "constantly in training" pressure off.

Enjoy your weekend!

Runners Fuel said...

Yuor body probably needs some time off. I'm glad you don't miss it. Enjoy your time (as much as you can).

Michelle said...

I just finished Eugene on Sunday. I promised myself to take 5 full days off from running. And while I am excited to get back out there, I haven't been a total bitch to live with either! I've enjoyed coming home and not rushing to cook dinner, clean, do homework, go to baseball, and oh yes, RUN! :) Enjoy your break...heck, with those injuries, you have more than earned it. Natures way of telling you to slow down, literally.

Meredith said...

Love it, T!

So glad you are resting and recovering. Love love love the last sentence. Love it!

Kerrie T. said...

Definitely think things happen for a reason. Even sucky things. You are handling it far better than I would be. Way to go, lady!

Pam said...

I'm so happy you have this mindset. I was afraid you might go a little bit bonkers being forced into sedentary-ism.

Marlene said...

Might as well enjoy the down time! I agree that things happen for a reason. After I banged up my shoulder and missed 4 weeks of running, I came back to a year full of PRs. #justsaying

Mile Posts by Dorothy Beal said...

I love your honesty.always. I hope you feel better soon. Saw the pics on FB :( I'm resting/recovering and have not missed running this week at all. It's been such a mental break not having to worry about how I was going to fit it in. I think breaks help us to fall deeper in love with running and keep us from burning out, even forced breaks.

Shellyrm ~ just a country runner said...

Blessing! for sure.

Becka said...

That's a great attitude. Happy healing!

H Love said...

Rest was way overdue...and trying to get your attention. Rest and speedy healing vibes your way!!

ajh said...

I love your last statement and try to follow it myself as best I can.

Lesley @ racingitoff.com said...

Enjoy the break! Sometimes we don't even know we need the rest.

Running Librarian said...

It sounds like you needed a break. Enjoy it and enjoy the lack of a running schedule :)

Momma Twitch said...

Amen! Enjoy your break. :)