Friday, June 3, 2011

readjusting ...

If you've been paying attention, you probably know that I live and die by a schedule. My training plans are laid out six to eight months in advance. Every workout, every day. And I run my household the same way. I know exactly what we are going to be doing pretty much every minute from now until December. That's just the way I roll.

But recently, life has thrown me some curve balls. Nothing life altering. Just schedule altering. And future plan altering.

It's rather annoying. And frustrating. And nerve racking. Some days, I just feel like screaming. Or walking away. Neither of which would be productive. But, at the same time, these curve balls have brought a sense of relief. OK, maybe not relief, but maybe, ease.

It has taken some readjustment (hard for an obsessive compulsive Type A), but the break is kind of nice. Losing the feeling that XYZ has to be done by this date or that time has lowered my stress level (to a point). I've had to accept help, which KILLS me. I've had to accept that I can't control EVERYTHING. And I've had to accept that even when you think you have everything planned, things can change. And the changes aren't necessarily bad.

These little curve balls are probably the universe's way of telling me to "chill out", to be more balanced and to stop rushing things. Maybe, I needed to see that I should appreciate things just the way they are instead of looking forward to what's next.

Well, Universe, I'm listening.

13 comments:

Jen said...

I am the same way.... too busy looking for waht's next instead of living and enjoying the moment I am in.

Running Ricig said...

Good luck! I have the same problem, I plan everything! It drives my husband crazy. He doesn't like to be tied down with plans until like an hour before, which in turn drives ME crazy. It's a vicious cycle.

Tri-Living...Together said...

I hear you LOUD AND CLEAR!!!! Hang in there and yes stop and learn what is being thrown in your face.. or your destined to repeat.. LOL!

Carin said...

I'm the same way as you, and I'm learning to "chill out" and adjust during my recovery from this kidney stone. I feel your pain, chica! We'll get through this and be better for it!

Jodi H said...

You are preaching to the choir girl! I can so relate! Although they say, "life is what happens when your busy making other plans".

Marlene said...

Type A? You? ;)

You seem to be doing a fine job of rolling with the punches - no small feat.

Here's hoping you don't have to "readjust" for too much longer.

Runners Fuel said...

I live my life by a schedule, too. Every once in a while, hubs will throw me something and mess up the schedule. Oh well, that is life!! Glad you're healing.

trifitmom said...

good for you...baby steps

momof3 said...

true... so true...

Mel -Tall Mom on the Run said...

Hang in there friend!!

Anne said...

Indeed...enjoy the respite.

Michelle said...

I hear ya'. I'm the same way and sometimes when things get "really" out of wack in the universe ... I would like to scream! Usually, i just run!

Colleen said...

So... you're learning that you aren't alone right? :)